the beginning ...

Workout:
Run/Walk (2.69 miles)
41 min.
burned 326 cal.
HR max: 173
HR ave: 150

This morning, I was of the mindset that I was going to workout. A P90X workout, and running. I got home, and my place was warm. I had to cool down before I could workout. Then, I was tired and took a nap.

Nothing. I did nothing productive today. I thought about the fact that I had a full day scheduled with things to do. It also occurred to me that in order to get the body I want, I do actually have to work for it.

But, there was no motivation to action.

Finally, I kicked my butt in gear. Loaded the shuffle with good tunes. Put on my HRM & other running gear. Decided to try running in the new Nike Frees ... I've been wearing them around, getting my feet used to them, but I hadn't run in them yet.

And so, I headed out ... was going to do my usual 3 1/2 mile route. But, about halfway into it, I needed to go to the bathroom. And, there wasn't anywhere on my route to stop! So, I headed home. Dropped my route by a mile, but, I got out there!

Tomorrow is more running. I'm noticing my feet hurt a little bit tonight, after the run, so I'll use my regular running shoes for tomorrow's run. (Gotta work those feet muscles slowly!) And, a P90X workout.

My new daily read is from a friend of mine from the BB boards ... "Marathon_Phil".

"Just a second he says - there is no 'just a second'?" - Tony Horton, PlyoX

You know I love really good Philosophy. I even love really good theology. Wanna know how weird I am - I have a double major undergrad - Engineering and Theology - there weren't many of those. This statement above is as good as I've read or heard anywhere, and I look hard.

It says it all to me. All we have is right now, right this instant, that's all we have. We all have such goals, we all have dreams. You know what the perfectly right time to pursue them is, with all your heart, mind, body and soul - NOW. "Just a second he says - there is no 'just a second'!"

There will ALWAYS be something blocking our total commitment to ourselves, to our big dreams. ALWAYS. That is the law of existence. Emotions, injury, depression, divorce, lost jobs, lost loves, loss of every sort will hit every day - "there is no just a second."

You know what the most brutal loss is that occurs everyday, almost every single day, at least for me - the loss of the fire. When you are driving in your car, or praying in church, or daydreaming in a line at the market, dreams are on fire inside. Everyone wants to be ripped in the checkout line. Everyone wants to be great kneeling in church. Everyone wants to be a hero stuck in traffic.

But then the moment comes, the alarm goes off, and that burning flame - is nowhere to be found. What you wake up with - if you are like me - is a little disappointment, a little depression, a little un-nameable fear and terror, a sense that somehow you are not enough today, that today is NOT the day to push for those dreams. That happens EVERYDAY. That is the law of existence. That is the most tragic loss we face daily, the loss of our flame.

"There is no just a second." We are dying kids. I am in the best shape of my life, in the best physical, mental, spiritual and emotional state in my life - but I am dying. My seconds are slipping away. This very second will not come again. It is time to push for my dreams - today. It is time to define them, to visualize them, to write them down, and to think about them with my whole heart and soul. It is time to do scary things, to walk into fearful situations, to push for exhaustion, suffering (as Mike and Tami say) and nausea (as my brother Mark says).

"Just a second." I say that everyday. I say that everytime I push play and just want to cruise. I say that everytime I slide into work for another not so tough day. I say that in every situation that confronts me everyday. "There is no just a second." Awesome. So I will push right now, and dive into the fear, into my dreams right now.

So many of you do that here. I really idolize so many of you. Your intensity and the way you live is how I wish I could live - so I really idolize you, and try to copy you. But since I don't want to offend anyone, let me pick Amy, my buddy Amy who is doing a fitness competition this week. She is the VP of a bank - her job takes her away from her dream. She experienced marriage "separation" (she wrote about online so I feel OK saying it - I share it for a purpose of course), she is sad about where she recently moved to - so many things are wrong. She has so many reasons to say: "Just a second" and all of us would grant it to her. But she never took a second. She kept pushing through everything, and she's making her dreams come true: now, today, this second.

"Just a second he says - there is NO 'just a second'". Tony is quite the philosopher - because there truly is no just second. Not for any of us.

phil

Sheri ... there is no "just a second" ... the previous days are just lost, never to be recaptured. Start here ... in this moment ... to become the best me possible.

Goals:

1. Run/Walk 5 miles
2. Chest & Back. Ab Ripper X.
   
3. Eat (a carb-filled) breakfast within 1 hour of waking.
4. Eat 5-6 small meals every day.
   
5. Drink 6 bottles of water.
6. Stop eating at least 2 hours before bedtime.
   
7. Take my vitamins.